Breaking Bondages

What a day it was. I came from an 11:00 interview this morning with a global company at The Fort. I loved it. The moment I stepped in their office, I felt a sense of calm and professionalism with how they do things. The premises were squeaky clean and the floor was carpeted. I saw work stations filled with people who seem to be happy with what they're doing. How I'd love to be part of that team. After lunch, I went to my first driving class. The mere fact that I'm writing this meant that I survived the streets of Manila. I'll write about my first driving experience in a separate blog. It deserves a space of its own with the numerous pedestrians I've allowed to cross and the cars, buses, pedicabs, taxis that I allowed to cut my path. I will only be this generous while I'm a student driver!

What I really wanted to write today is how divinely guided I am. I've been in search of my spirituality for several years now and for the past couple of months, I felt a guiding hand leading my way. I've successfully picked up several Christian books and last Saturday, I bought my very own Bible. I love the leather like camel and tan cover and the verses came with notes so it's easy to understand for someone like me who is starting to read. I'm a soul longing to connect and comprehend my being and purpose. Everyone goes through this pattern of thought and we are all bound to something. More often that not, these bondages do tie us down.

I'm blessed to have found this path of reconnecting. If not for the pain I recently went through, I would not have embarked on this journey. This is the first time that I'm openly discussing the other side of my laughter. Admittedly, I'm still in the process of healing. The past week, I felt the anger and hurt resurface. They felt real and I knew I had to work on it so I can let it go one time or another. It'll take awhile to forgive but I have decided to move on. Unleashing myself from the bondages of doing my daily routine and breaking away from the autocratic place where I used to be is a herculean task in itself. I am unlearning several things from the past and learning new things so I can propel myself to the future. Despite all that has been said and done, I am grateful that it was my past that opened doors of opportunity for the future.

I thought that I would always be at the same place but I was called to reinvent myself. I was temporarily sheltered until I found where I was meant to be. I know that I will bloom where I'll be planted and when that happens, it will be easier to release myself from the seven-year bondage and I can truly say that I have forgiven.